Date : Monday, May 25, 2009
Time : 10:31 PM
Title : Appalled

I feel so irritated right now cos i can't concentrate on the subject that i am studying now for tomorrow's test. I bet that all of my classmates are studying and getting ready for tomorrow's test.I feel so agitated, angry and arggghh! I don't know how to describe this feeling. All i need is to ask my parents to understand me. They keep saying that i did nothing at home and all i know to do is to go out and study. I mean, what is wrong of going out studying by yourselves? I did nothing bad. It is not that i hang out with my friends and slack around. I just need their support in my studies. I want them to know that i have a goal in my life even though i am in ITE. Did they ever know what is my goal in my life? No they don't. I want to get into Poly like the others and with that i get my diploma cert and therefor i can go into a workforce and get a good pay. And with that i can support my parents and bring them travelling around the world, giving them a good life. All they know that i am a girl who must do all the chores and yah listen to them. I did some of the chores too and all they say was that how many times did i do? I did listen to them, sometimes. They even said that i was defaiance to them. Sometimes i also need the freedom of speech. I want them to listen to me. Even though i am a girl in the family it doesn't mean that i have to stop striving for my goal? All i need from them is their support. And if they want me to stop striving for my goal, in the first place why they even bother to send me to school? Another 1 more unit to go. And the day after tomorrow, POA CA1 test which is like another fucking problematic subject to study lah!